Its official, I'm losing my mind.

I broke down last night. With everything that happened recently, I broke down. I felt like shit today. Both physically and emotionally, though the physically part only started today. Everyone said I looked like crap, but I was still smiling. Well I felt like crap as well. You know, if anyone asked me in person if I was ok, I'd always say yes, even if it was a downright lie. Well last night, everything came full circle. I buckled under the weight/pressure/emotions. It seems like everything is trying to wreak havoc on me. I need to hold out.

Last night was the first nite in over a week that I've actually slept more than 4 hours, and that's only because I was sick. Had no dreams during that sleep (thank god).

Yesterday was fun(ny) after ccn (by the way we made a profit of $6.50 -_-') went with kevon and liwei to go and meet jiayu yenling and siew yin at library where we waited for yanling huda and ina to come. already felt sick then, but still had fun, still laughed alot.
Losing myself inside
I'm not ok right now. My head hurts, and whats going on in my head hurts.
Breaking Down
You know, maybe its because I havn't been sleeping lately that I fell sick, maybe I've been stressing myself out too much. But maybe I'd be lying if i said that that was all there is to it.

I still smile. As much as I can. But truthfully, I have no idea how much longer I can smile.
STAY STRONG
Hopefully I can do that.

Cheers
Healing Poet