Confession

Shit....I realli don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore. The last few days went buy in a blur. I hope I'm not going crazy....then again, I hope so. Things would be so much simpler.

Tried to sleep again last night, got a couple of hours worth till I couldn't take it anymore. So I got up and reread I am the Messenger till first light. At least I'm still trying to sleep.

I...hope, for want of a better word, that I know what I'm doing, that I can trust myself. Because if things go wrong, if I mess up at anything, God help me.

I said I wouldn't, but I have to
I know I Shouldn't, but I want to.

Can you blame me for that? Maybe.

I tried to cope. I'm still trying, the effort is there. but I'm not sure if the results are.

Somebody show me a sign please....

Is this worth it? Yea, I feel that way. Its worth every every minute of it.

Healing Poet