Catharsis?

Why is it that almost everything I do causes me or someone else pain?

Oh thats right, because I'm an idiot. I'm a stupid, tactless, masochistic idiot.

I understand why you had to say that. Not that I hate you for saying that, more I hate myself for my inability to have said anything more meaningful when you said that.

Please understand why I do what I do/I did/I'm doing. Its a part of me that has remained constant throughout my life, either because I have been unable to change it or because I don't want to change it. I'm still not sure which. In situations like these, the line seems to blur between the two.

It might be a phase, I don't know. I really don't know. I suppose only time will tell.

Enjoy yourself by the way :) I'm not writing this to stop you. Its just a way of me to get rid of some angst :P

PS I wouldn't be surprised if you read this and laughed :P

Cheers and waiting
Healing Poet